Anyway, as I was saying, it was a great year for me and it came with a lot of lessons.
I learnt more about the personality of God and how God speaks to his children. I learnt that God does not need to cause evil for us to learn or “teach us the hard way”. I realized it is inconsistent with the character of God to inflict pain on his sons instead of just speaking to his children.
I learnt that for all the evil in this world, it is either caused by satan or man’s decisions. And sometimes we blame God but we do not listen when he speaks. It is error to think it is “God’s will” to kill your child or to burn down your house. Yes God can use these situations we cause ourselves to now prune us but God would rather have it differently.
“When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death. Don’t be deceived, my dear brothers and sisters. Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.”
This was one of the greatest lessons I learnt in 2018; that God is good and he is a good father. Always.
The only kind of suffering that directly comes from him is that which comes from the suffering for the sake of the gospel.
I didn’t know God was teaching someone else the same thing too. The other day I was speaking to a friend, Oge and she shared something profound with me I felt it was worthy to share here so we can all start the new year with the right thinking.
I was just thinking about my 2018, and i thought of previous years as well and i saw the repetition in experiences and I just felt in my heart that they were needless.
I mean my heart had suffered in the hands of friends(female and male).
In 2015/2016, it had been a guy i liked for the longest and eventually dated that just didn’t understand the concept of commitment or handling my heart with care. I had to exercise different levels of patience explaining my heart to him and he still did awfully with it.
In 2017, my closest friends had hurt me deeply and i had to learn that love was beyond feelings and emotions. He(Love) was(is) a person, then a decision. Giving my Life to Christ and shouting Christian, meant that i had to Love unconditionally, whether they looked like they deserved it or not. I was to be in the likeness of my Father.
In the middle of these years, my trust had been betrayed a million and one times. I carried my pieced heart one too many times to the Father and He told me “Love always trust”. It wasn’t license to be a doormat, but i wasn’t allowed to run around broken and suspicious with the *men are scum” tees either
Yet again in 2018 i had retaken the course on “love is not feeling”. I cried most of the year from hurt and pain, and only realised how much God gives to us with His unconditional Love. I mean a lot of people rebuff the precious love he freely bestows. I had to give Love constantly even when my emotions wanted to pack and leave. In the course of the year, i thought surely” i need to grow a tough skin, i need to be more savage, less kind and meek”, it would probably save my tender heart from all the shenanigans 2018 brought. Appaz, Abba taught/thought differently.
He would insist that I gave 100% of my heart, he would ask me to pray for them, gift them with something, go out of my way and stuffs like that!.
Anyhoos, whilst all these look good in summary, like i have had eventful years, it wasn’t all roses and lullabies. It was tears, pain, insomnia, occasional outburst, mind games, insecurity, and once in a while feeling of insanity, because emotions are very intense for me; once the doors of vulnerability are opened and not handled well, the devil swims almost freely.
I believe, knowing what i know now; The Word, i could have learned them through the word.
The time i studied 1Corinthians 13, the Word clearly outlines what Love is; patient, kind, not proud or rude or envious, not self seeking, or a keeper of wrong record… If these words has taken root in my heart, I don’t think my many sleepless nights would have been necessary. I would have been sleeping and ruminating on the scriptures instead.
Sometimes, because the promise for us believers is that “all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called….”, we mistake God’s goodness of turning our mess into a message as His good and perfect will.
No Ma’am, not always.
Yes “the process” is necessary, a.k.a the refiners fire, but when it starts to look redundant and coated in the same experience “every time every time” , you need to take a sit and ask God question.
What we tell ourselves is “the process” are things we probably lead ourselves into and didn’t heed to the counsel of the Word or Spirit in those situations.
In fact most of the wilderness experience, a.k.a the process a.k.a refinery’s fire, we see in the scripture were situations beyond the control of the Human being refined.
So whilst there’s definitely a place for process. For everyone that would be used on the earth, God would give you a measure of personal experience, as its birth deeper understanding and often times empathy needed for the calling over your life, IT SHOULDN’T be the only way to learn.
Experience is NOT THE BEST TEACHER. The Word of God is.
The Word is God’s preferred method to teach….
“All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.”
2 Timothy 3:16-17
then His Spirit and lastly experience.
If you find that your Christian walk is colored by different experiences before you learn, you probably aren’t eating enough of the Word.
Take it from Oge. The word of God is his preferred method of teaching. And we make many of the mistakes we make because we do not search the scriptures daily and speak to God daily. Lets take bible study intentional this year.